tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20372197038177823612024-02-07T08:01:40.055-05:00Tales of a Proverbs 31 WannabeProverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.comBlogger293125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-73059154462030003632017-11-30T15:01:00.001-05:002017-11-30T15:01:12.845-05:00The Remarkable Ordinary - A Book ReviewThe Remarkable Ordinary - How to Stop, Look, and Listen to Life by Frederick Buechner<br />
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The Remarkable Ordinary is based on a series of mostly unpublished lectures, where Buechner explains how to stop, look, and listen to your life. The book is organized into three parts.<br />
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In Part 1 Stop, Look, and Listen For God, Buechner uses art and faith to teach us how to pay attention to greatness in and amongst the ordinary. He says, "To love your neighbor is to see your neighbor. To see somebody, really to see somebody, you have to love somebody. You have to see people the way Rembrandt saw the old lady, not just a face that comes at you the way a dry leaf blows at you down the path like all the other dry leaves, but in a way that you realize the face is something the likes of which you have never seen before and will never see again. To love somebody we must see that person's face, and once in a while we do. Usually it is because something jolts us into seeing it."<br />
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In Part 2, Listening for God in the Stories We Tell, Buechner tells his own stories and yet, we somehow remember our own stories as we read. In one anecdote he tells about a time he was giving a lecture on his spiritual autobiography. After he was done, an Episcopal clergyman stood up to introduce Maya Angelou and said, "Ms. Angelou will now get up and tell you her story, and it will be a very different story from the one that you have just heard from Frederick Buechner." As he said that, Maya Angelou, who was sitting in the front row and shaking her head from side to side, got up and she said he was wrong. She said, "I have exactly the same story to tell as Frederick Buechner." Although we all come from different experiences, we are all created in the image of God and we have the same stories to tell.<br />
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The last part of the book, Telling the Truth contains more stories about Buechner's life and how those situations helped him to find remarkableness in the ordinary and to love those around us well.<br />
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I enjoyed this book and would recommend it for anyone who wants to explore ways to find extraordinary in the every day life.<br />
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Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-23028480531271183932017-11-30T12:13:00.001-05:002017-11-30T13:28:19.550-05:00A Crazy, Holy Grace - A Book ReviewA Crazy, Holy Grace: The Healing Power of Pain and Memory by Frederick Buechner<br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> This was the first book I have read of Buechner's (pronounced Beekner if you don't know) so I wasn't sure what to expect. However, in looking him up on Facebook, I found that many people I respect like his author page so I was excited to give it a read. While this is a short book, it has a lot of meat to it. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> In this book Buechner uses the pain and grief he experienced from his father's suicide to explore how wounds can be healed. In the midst of the grief and pain God may seem far away or perhaps not present at all. One of my favorite passages in this book says, "You can never be sure you're gong to find a pearl in the depths; you find monsters in the depths. But it seems to me that what you do find in the depths is yourself and each other, and even God is present, there in the depths as well as in the heights." Isn't that what life is about? Finding ourselves, each other and God in the depths as well as the heights? This statement brought to mind the many people in my life that have walked through the depths with me and made me so grateful for their presence.It also was a reminder of times God felt far away or even absent, yet on the other side of the depths I could see God's grace that sustained me. Buechner says that loss will come to all of us, but we are not alone. Crazy and unreal as it may sometimes seem, God's holy, healing grace is always present and available if we are still enough to receive it. </span><br />
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Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-3183539678358522502016-06-27T14:45:00.000-04:002016-06-27T14:45:41.656-04:00Eternal Salvation Movie Review<br />
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Eternal Salvation is about Jonathan, who has built a successful career working for an investment banking firm. He has done whatever it takes to get ahead in this competitive industry and has quite the reputation for success. While in his prime, Jonathan has a brain aneurysm that leaves him comatose. After he wakes up and begins the long road of recovery, Jonathan begins seeing that there may be more to life than he thought and that perhaps winning at any cost wasn't the way he wanted to do business. Jonathan finds a friend in the last person he would have expected and they journey together to help him discover what is important in life.<br />
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If I were to pick this movie up and judge it by the front cover, I probably wouldn't give it much thought. It's hard to tell what it is about or that it is anything that would interest me. I am certainly glad I gave it a chance. This is a great movie for a movie night within your small group or even just to watch at home. It is certainly family friendly, although it wouldn't appeal to young children. Eternal Salvation kept my attention throughout the entire movie and I found myself investing in these characters emotionally, caring about what happened to them. I thought the acting was good and the message was powerful. I would highly recommend this movie and its message. I am looking forward to viewing other movies from FishFlix, as they are high quality entertainment.<br />
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If you are interested in Eternal Salvation, or other movies by FishFlix, I encourage you to visit their website <a href="http://www.fishflix.com/" target="_blank">HERE</a>.<br />
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I received this movie at no cost in exchange for an honest review. I am not obligated to give it a positive rating, but I am highly recommending it because I enjoyed it and think you will too!Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-67218757299800229892016-05-18T01:51:00.001-04:002016-05-18T01:51:37.532-04:00A Divided House<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I have received texts and Facebook messages all day asking how General Conference is going and what the mood and attitude is like out here today. I'll be honest. It's been a tough day. This morning Bishop Ough made a statement on behalf of the Council of Bishops regarding the Church's division over human sexuality. If you didn't see it, you can watch it <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfFVZNyox5U" target="_blank">here</a>.<br />
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While it should have been common sense to me that the bishops don't necessarily know what to do with this nor do they agree on what should happen, it hadn't really occurred to me before. It was an unsettling revelation and I think the tension was felt throughout the convention center. A motion came to the floor requesting the Council of Bishops meet and come back to our General Conference with some sort of guidance on how we as a church proceed and work through our division. Our bishops are our spiritual leaders and to think that they don't have answers either leaves us feeling at a loss. Their advice would not be something as a body are bound to, we are earnestly seeking a way forward within the denomination.<br />
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So if I had to sum up how I feel right now it would be unsettled. I'm not sure how we as a church can find unity or come to any kind of agreement. I pray we do. I pray that our bishops will bring wise counsel in the morning and we can find a way forward through this to love one another through these differences.<br />
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During one of our breaks this afternoon I spent some time in the quiet of the prayer room, walking the labyrinth and praying at some of the other stations for the Holy Spirit to envelop this place and give peace and wisdom. My prayer is that we can see each other through the eyes of Jesus and love as he loves.<br />
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We will see what tomorrow holds. I'm nervous and unsettled tonight as I go to bed. God is here, He is with us and my prayer is that we will keep our eyes focused on Him and keep the main thing the main thing.<br />
John Wesley said, "<span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">Though we cannot think alike, may we not love alike? May we not be of one heart, though we are not of one opinion? Without all doubt, we may. Herein all the children of God may unite, notwithstanding these smaller differences.” While this doesn't seem like a small difference, I know we serve a mighty big God. </span><br />
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Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-4595518629465980372016-05-16T12:48:00.000-04:002016-05-16T12:48:53.780-04:00Does It Matter?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I am serving on the General Administration Legislative
Committee. A large part of what my sub-committee is dealing with is Plan UMC
Revised. For those that don’t know, Plan UMC was a plan to restructure agencies
within the United Methodist Church. It was adopted at the 2012 General
Conference and then ruled unconstitutional afterward by the Judicial Council.
When a revised plan was submitted for GC2016, the Council of Bishops asked for
a declaratory ruling from the Judicial Council to determine whether or not it
would be constitutional. This was to prevent the same situation as four years
ago when so much time was spent on something that couldn’t be implemented.<o:p></o:p></div>
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When our sub-committee met yesterday, we moved fairly quickly
to suggest adoption or rejection of petitions that were not related to Plan UMC.
I was elected secretary of our sub-committee, which means that I am responsible
for writing the recommendations of our sub-committee to the larger committee.
Our sub-committee could take several actions: recommend approval of a petition,
recommend rejection of a petition, or amend a petition and recommend approval.
Once a petition goes to the larger committee, if it is approved it moves on to
the entire General Conference for a vote. If the petition is rejected, it dies
in committee. This are still ways it could get back to GC for a vote, but I’m
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Today our job was a bit more tedious. We began to dig into
Plan UMC Revised and its constitutionality. There are so many different
opinions around the table about what needs to happen as we seek to streamline
the structure of the church. It seems we have had a lot of discussion but not
come to any kind of consensus or resolution. We still have some time to work on
this, but it has felt like we were spinning our wheels this afternoon. <o:p></o:p></div>
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A few minutes ago we went out for a 20-minute break. While
on break, I went to the prayer room to clear my head and talk to God. As I
walked the prayer labyrinth, I began to pray for clarity and really ask God
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God, You are the Creator of the Church. Does it matter to
You how we structure the Church? Is what we are doing making a difference in kingdom
building? How does this restructuring make disciples? God, You created us.
Created us to worship You and we are called to make disciples. Agencies like
the General Committee on Race and Religion and General Committee on Status and
Role of Women do make a big difference to many people in the world. Because of
our structure, and these agencies are a part of that, we are a connection that
reaches people all over the world to further build God’s kingdom. We are called
to be good stewards of the resources God has given us. A change in structure to
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As I walked to the center of the labyrinth, my prayer was
simply this: Jesus, be present. Jesus, be the center of all we say and do and
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Many times when people hear of my involvement in the General
Church or within our annual conference they say things like “That sounds
boring,” or “I have no interest in getting into all of that political stuff.”
For me though, it is so much more than church politics. It is about a structure
that reaches around the world, providing resources and showing love to God’s
people. It is about doing the most good with what God has given us and in doing
so making the greatest impact. Does this committee work matter? It may not be
something recognized in our local churches but I think it does matter and the
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Y'all, sometimes the going gets tough around here. I'm not gonna lie. It's been one of those weeks. I'm trying to get ready to be gone for 2 weeks, Hubby's back is out and he is in a lot of pain, I got a call yesterday that Prince had thrown up at school and I needed to come get him and Princess is mad that she has to go to school without Prince this morning. When I opened the freezer to get ice for my water bottle an exploded glass root beer bottle that Prince forgot he put in there fell out on my foot and shattered everywhere. Oh, and my washing machine quit this morning. UGH! Did I mention I'm about to be gone for 2 weeks?! You can't make this stuff up!<br />
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Yep. It's been a challenging week. There are times when I would have crawled back into bed and just cried, feeling completely defeated. There are many times when I would have hollered and yelled at Princess to suck it up and threatened her within an inch of her life. This morning I managed to remain calm.<br />
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This morning I took deep breaths, counted to 10 and used my essential oils. I cleaned up the sticky root beer mess in the freezer and on the floor and dug the piece of glass out of my foot. Yes, Princess did go to school and no, she wasn't happy about it, but I didn't lose my cool through any of this. I would like to think that this is because I am a really awesome mom and I just decided to stop yelling one day. I would like to think that this is because I have perfected that whole self control thing and it was just that easy. I know that it's not. What I do know is that I have been spiritually armoring up for the stress that comes with leaving my kids and for a trip that will be exhausting. I have been intentional with my Bible study and my prayer time, spending time in quiet to listen for God and to allow Him to calm my spirit. I regularly invite the Holy Spirit in and ask Him to take over and make me over. The difference is my connection with Him. When I allow God to work and trust that He is going to move in and through me, I am a completely different person. It's not anything I can do in my own strength.<br />
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This isn't a post to brag that I have it all together. There are many times when I don't do this. I fail miserably and I worry and try to accomplish things in my own strength. During those times I am a stressed out, yelling, crying mama. It doesn't work out so well for me. It's really a post for me to see the difference so next time when I mess up I can remember the difference and turn things right again. It's also meant as a word of encouragement for those mamas who may be in the same boat, feeling like they just can't anymore. Yes you can! You just can't do it alone, and the good news is that you don't have to. Take a deep breath and ask God to be your strength and give you peace.<br />
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Click here to hear <a href="https://youtu.be/UvBBC7-PSHo" target="_blank">my favorite song at the moment</a>...Holy Spirit by Francesca Battistelli.<br />
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Sabbath, a day of rest. When I hear of other people taking a sabbath I recognize its importance and in fact, I encourage it. The last few weeks and months have been busy and even at night my dreams have been occupied with all I have coming up so I haven't really rested. Hubby and close friends have encouraged me to take some time and I always have a million excuses of why I can't. Most of those excuses have to do with my unwillingness to allow other people to step in and help. After all, I'm supposed to be Supermom, Superwife, Superpreschool director, Supereverything. Right?!</div>
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Finally, after feeling completely overwhelmed at the beginning of this week, I decided that I had to make the time to rest and take a sabbath. So on Wednesday, as part of my preparation for the upcoming General Conference, I took a sabbath day. I needed to get my head clear and my heart in sync with God. With the sunroof open and the windows down, I headed out to the beach. On my way there, I sang at the top of my lungs...some praise and worship and some oh so spiritual Jimmy Buffet and Zac Brown Band. With one hand on the wheel and the other out the window dancing in the wind, I enjoyed the ride. Isn't that what we are supposed to do in life? Enjoy the ride? Sometimes I forget that.<br />
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Playalinda Beach is a sacred place for me. I always feel closer to God with sand between my toes and the sounds of the surf. Walking over the boardwalk, that first glimpse of waves with the sun glistening on the water, I take a deep breath and smell and taste the salt. This is heaven. With only one other family on the beach, I could spread out my sheet and just be. I had invited a friend to join me and she was on her way. Until she arrived, it was just God and me. I took deep cleansing breaths and felt the stress melt away. By the time my friend got there, I was ready for fellowship. We laid there talking about life experiences...things that mattered and things that didn't. We laughed, we commiserated, we enjoyed being together. We had such a good time that we lost track of time and I almost made her late picking up her kids!<br />
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It was a good day. I came home in a very different frame of mind. I felt rested, connected and put together for the first time in a while. I don't know what took me so long to do this, but I will learn to listen to my soul the next time and make the time.Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-18842948521899032432016-04-22T10:00:00.002-04:002016-04-29T10:45:03.361-04:00Preparing for General Conference<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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In a few weeks, The United Methodist Church will hold its General Conference in Portland, Oregon. General Conference convenes every 4 years and United Methodists come from all over the world to worship together, pray together and discern together the direction God would have our denomination go. That is the hope anyway, that when we come together as a body, we will listen for the Holy Spirit to guide our thoughts and hearts into action and polity that is of God. Changes will be made to our Book of Discipline, a book that states what we as United Methodists believe and also our Book of Resolutions. As you can imagine, this is quite a difficult task. There are many important issues we will be discussing, although the one that is getting the most press and attention is human sexuality.<br />
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Florida has 18 delegates going to General Conference - 9 clergy and 9 laity. I was elected as one of those delegates. Our delegation has been preparing since we were elected last June. We have met on Saturdays, learning all we can about what to expect and educating ourselves on petitions and resolutions we will vote on at GC. While GC lasts 2 weeks, the first week is spent in legislative committees, going through each petition and resolution within your committee to refine, rework and avoid duplicates. There are 12 legislative committees, I am serving on General Administration, which has to do with the structure of the Methodist Church, its boards and agencies. The second week we meet as a body, all 874 delegates to discuss and votes on the petitions that have been worked on in each committee. I have ordered "The Idiot's Guide to Roberts Rules of Order" because I found that 4 years ago when I attended as an observer I got a bit lost in the process. When there is an amendment to the amendment, but that isn't passed so you are back to the original amendment, it gets a bit confusing. Especially because it moves quickly and in layers.<br />
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A week ago Sunday our Bishop visited our local church to preach. When it came time for the Children's Message Pastor Charlie talked to the children about laying on of hands and why people do this. He asked if they would like to learn how to lay hands on people and pray for them. Bishop Carter and I were invited to come and kneel at the rail and the children (and a few adults) laid hands on us as the church prayed for us. When Charlie first told me he was going to do this I loved the idea of involving the children in such a way. It's one of the things I really love about our church. I wasn't prepared for how meaningful this would be as it played out. As I knelt at the rail with all of these little hands on me, some who were rubbing my arm. At one point I looked up and there were these two little eyes looking right into mine and the innocent smile of a 3 year old who may not have fully understood the importance of that in which she was taking part, but she is learning and will continue to learn and grow in this intergenerational body of Christ. It was a sweet moment and I'm finding it hard to describe in words how it felt, but my heart was warmed and I found such meaning in this act of prayer.<br />
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Last Thursday night we gathered as a church for a prayer service for General Conference. We prayed for GC as a whole and for the work to be done there and we prayed for each delegate from Florida by name. Pastor Charlie read several passages of Scripture, we sang hymns and he gave us a word, which was actually more of a conversation. We talked about the mystery of our Unity in Christ and how the light that He brings in the world means that he has already won the victory over death, no matter what happens in Portland. It was an uplifting service and I felt encouraged and supported by the prayers that were lifted up.<br />
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I have received cards and letters in the mail from people I don't know who have let me know they are praying for me and for all who are going to General Conference. If you think your prayers don't matter, they do and it is really special when someone lets you know they are praying for you specifically.<br />
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I covet your prayers as I prepare to go to Oregon. It is
exhausting, as we are in meetings from early in the morning until very late at
night, but there are times especially during worship that are quite powerful.
Worshiping with people from all over the world, knowing that the business that
occurs there has an impact on Christ’s Church and setting the vision of where
the Church will go during the next four years gives what we do purpose. Please
pray for our time in Portland, that it is fruitful and for a fresh wind of the
Holy Spirit to descend upon the Conference. Also, please pray for my family, as
they will be home without me for two weeks. <o:p></o:p></div>
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If you would like
to follow along with what is going on during General Conference, there are two
ways to do this. One, follow my blog. I will be blogging as I can about what
is happening. Also, you can visit the General Conference website at <a href="http://www.umc.org/topics/general-conference-2016">http://www.umc.org/topics/general-conference-2016</a> for more information about legislation
that will be discussed and voted on. The plenary sessions and worship will be
live streamed and you can find the information about that either on the GC site
or I will post links on my blog. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Thank you for your
support, prayers and words of encouragement as I go to Portland. I hope to
represent you well and carry you all in my heart as I go.<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-1642539776761116952016-01-27T10:17:00.000-05:002016-01-27T10:17:38.350-05:00Preemie Mamas, You Aren't AloneThis morning on Facebook I came across an article called<br />
<a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/andrea-mullenmeister/when-birthdays-bring-fear-birth-trauma-and-post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd_b_8973040.html" target="_blank">When Birthdays bring Fear: Birth Trauma and PTSD</a>. I shared this article on my feed because lately there have been several women in my life who have shared with me that they too, relate to this experience. For the longest time I thought it was just me and I felt very alone in this. After reading the article and hearing feedback from friends who also identify with it, I have decided to share a journal entry I wrote last summer, right before the twins' birthday. I share this in hopes that others will realize they aren't alone, that this is a real thing and it's not something silly you can just "get over."<br />
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On Tuesday our sweet miracle babies will be 11 years old. I
don’t know where the time has gone. As the day approaches each year I have so
many mixed emotions. Of course I am looking forward to celebrating the lives of
these two incredible little people. They are indeed miracles and have grown
from the tiny 3 pounders that seemed so fragile into smart, strong, fun people
that I truly enjoy being around. I am so privileged that God chose me to be
their mommy. Every year Wes and I give them a huge birthday extravaganza. This
year they don’t want that. They want a simple party at home with family. That’s
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The other part of their birthday isn’t something I like to talk
about a lot. The circumstances surrounding their birth were traumatic for Wes and me. Let’s be honest…the big
birthday celebration is more for us than it is for them. It’s a distraction
from all of the grief and sad memories associated with the trauma of their
birth. I thought that through the years the flashbacks, anxiety and nightmares
would go away. It’s been 11 years and they haven’t. What I have learned is that
I have PTSD. It has taken me a while to come to terms with this, to admit it to
myself and it is extremely difficult for me to tell other people about it. I’m
not sure why I find it so difficult to talk about. Perhaps I feel like using a
term like PTSD makes me sound overly dramatic or perhaps because it feels like
there is something wrong with me…like I’m damaged. What I have come to
understand is that their birth was traumatic. I almost died, they could have
died, and the weeks and months after they were born we were literally fighting
for our lives. This isn’t something I can just “get over.” Well-meaning people
have said to me, “But everyone is alright now. You are all 3 healthy and you
should think about how incredibly blessed you are and how good God is.” Yes,
perhaps I should concentrate on the goodness of God and how He blessed our
family. In fact, I do thank Him every single day for how He has worked in our
lives and for the privilege of raising Sarah Grace and Jonah.</div>
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Here’s the thing I
didn’t understand until recently...PTSD is the result of trauma and we have
wounds that haven’t healed. So often I think of PTSD as associated with
soldiers coming back from battle, but we did fight a very real battle. A life
and death battle. I don’t always know what is going to trigger a flashback. I
can be walking along minding my own business and happy as I can be and then
suddenly I smell something that takes me back to the hospital and I am there
all over again, reliving the trauma all over again. Sometimes it is the sight
of adorable baby shoes, a maternity top on a mannequin in a store, it comes
right up and punches me in the gut and I’m stunned, trying to recover. It’s a
dark place to go and I don’t want to be there, but I can’t always avoid those
sights, sounds, smells, memories because I don’t always know what is going to
be a trigger. Yesterday I was home minding my own business when I started
smelling this smell like the NICU. I hadn’t been anywhere near a hospital and I
wasn’t cleaning with chemicals so I’m not sure where it came from, but I had to
light a candle to try to smell something different so that I wouldn’t go into a
full on flashback. I am learning strategies to deal with this and sometimes I
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I hope that someday I can look at their baby pictures and
not feel panic as fresh as if it had just happened. I hope that someday I can
eat at Chick-fil-a and not feel nauseous as I remember that I ate at the one in
the lobby of the hospital almost every day when they were in the NICU. I hope
that someday I can complete their baby books and photo albums and not have a
panic attack just from looking at ultrasound and baby pictures. I do have a lot
of mommy guilt that these kids don’t have completed baby books. I have faith
that someday all of these things will happen. I am not there YET, but someday I
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<li><span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal; text-indent: -0.25in;"> </span><span style="text-indent: -0.25in;">I can’t do this alone. The Holy Spirit will
empower me, strengthen me, walk this out with me every step of the way and on
the days that I can’t walk on my own, He will uphold me.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal; text-indent: -0.25in;"> . </span><span style="text-indent: -0.25in;">I need my network of family and friends to
support me. They may not understand completely and that’s ok. I just need to
know they will be there for me, hold me and encourage me on the days when I
feel stuck.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal; text-indent: -0.25in;"> . </span><span style="text-indent: -0.25in;">My children don’t remember any of the trauma
surrounding their birth and I thank God for that. They aren’t affected by these
circumstances except for what they have been told. They know that they were
born early and were fragile and we were very afraid. They know they are
miracles and that we are so thankful God gave them to us. They know they were
very sick and God grew them up to be strong, smart, big kids. They know they
are loved – by us and most especially by God and that He has a purpose for
their lives.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal; text-indent: -0.25in;"> </span><span style="text-indent: -0.25in;">Healing for me isn’t going to come overnight. I
am making progress and some days are better than others. I am learning to put
our time in the NICU into perspective. My week in ICU and their month in the
NICU were certainly scary and traumatic – HOWEVER – it’s really only a one
month period of time in the span of 11 years. Yes, there were other scary times
and health challenges I faced, but in terms of the birth of the babies, we are
talking about one month and then a couple of months that followed as Wes and I
were scared that something would happen after we brought them home. Anyway, that’s
a whole lot of good days compared to the 30+ really scary ones.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal; text-indent: -0.25in;"> </span><span style="text-indent: -0.25in;">I am not alone in how I feel. For one thing, my
very best friend, partner, advocate and true love lived this with me. We have
both been changed by this experience. You know that talk you have with your
spouse where you say “If anything happens to me I want for you to get married
again?” Yeah, that one. We had that talk right after they told me my body was
shutting down and they weren’t sure they could fix me - just before they
wheeled me to ICU. If I close my eyes, I can instantly be transported back to
that room, him holding my hands and sitting on the edge of my bed. I meant
every word of it. My point is, you don’t go through something like this and not
come out changed. We grew closer to God and each other in those moments and
learned not to take one moment for granted. In some ways I think Wes had it
worse than me because there were points in time that I was so sick that I
didn’t realize how bad things were. It was during those days that he held it
together for both of us, driving back and forth between Americus and Columbus
to make sure the babies and I were looked after.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal; text-indent: -0.25in;"> </span><span style="text-indent: -0.25in;">I am much stronger today because of what I have
been through. I had lived with such fear my entire life. I was afraid to die.
In those moments in my hospital room, when the doctors told me that they
weren’t sure of anything but that there was a chance I could die, I wasn’t
afraid. The one time I should have been afraid, I knew I was safe in Jesus and
either he would heal me or he would take me to live with him. Either way, it
was all going to be OK.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal; text-indent: -0.25in;"> </span><span style="text-indent: -0.25in;">God uses every experience for His glory. I know
that all things work together for good for them that love God who are called
according to His purpose. Some days I can’t see what that good is, but I do
trust that God knows and He wastes nothing.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal; text-indent: -0.25in;"> </span><span style="text-indent: -0.25in;">My thoughts and plans are not His thoughts and
plans. I am coming to terms with this and I know that not only do I not get to
choose Plans A, B, C…I don’t even get to know what those plans are until God is
ready to reveal it to me and chances are, He isn’t going to show me the plan anyway.
I only get to see the next step, then the next, then the next. I am becoming OK
with this although the control freak in me still freaks out a little bit with
fear of the unknown.</span></li>
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I guess that’s all for now. I could go on
and on about what I have learned and what I know to be true. I just needed to
get some of these thoughts out of my head and into some sort of journal so I
can process them…or maybe not. Maybe I just need them out of my head and to
leave them alone without processing them. I just need for them not to be so
much at the forefront of my mind. The counselor is helping me to see that I
have unrealistic expectations of myself when it comes to healing from all of
this. I spent years thinking that if I relived it enough I would be desensitized
to it and it would go away. Instead, I sunk deeper and deeper into a dark place
that I didn’t know how to get out of. It’s going to take some time to figure
out how to deal with this and what to do with all of it. In some ways, that
dark place is comfortable because I know what that feels like. I no longer
remember my life before that. It will happen though, and those moments of grief
will be like one snapshot in an entire book of photographs. I am clinging to
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Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-18815854958526314242016-01-13T20:20:00.000-05:002016-01-13T20:20:24.569-05:00My Update from MayoIt has been a long day...a long couple of days. I am glad to be home. I have had many people checking in on me today either through Facebook or text message. I have played this medical situation close to the vest because I wasn't sure what we were dealing with and it was a bit scary for me. Now that I am home, I will share what happened.<br />
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As I said in my last post, last fall routine labs came back with some abnormal levels. My liver counts were elevated and when my gastro doctor at Mayo repeated the tests two week later, they were even higher. This concerned him enough that he referred me on to a liver specialist. When I met with the liver specialist at the beginning of December he didn't seem too alarmed but wanted to follow up with more testing. He said that if he didn't get the results he was looking for and if my numbers didn't start going back toward normal he would perform a biopsy on my liver. I have talked to many people who say that the liver biopsy isn't that big of a deal but I was pretty freaked out about it. I went on Dec. 28 for a repeat of my labs and an MRI. The labs looked better than they had, although they still weren't normal. When the nurse called me on New Year's Eve to tell me that my MRI looked fine and the labs were better she said the doctor wasn't ready to cancel the biopsy just yet. He wanted to see what my labs would show when I went back up on Jan. 13.<br />
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That brings us to this morning. I went for my blood draw first thing this morning and expected for the doctor to give me an answer about the biopsy when I saw him at 10:30. He didn't do that. Instead he said that my blood levels were better and heading toward normal but that he still had concerns and he wanted one more test to determine whether or not I would need the biopsy. All morning I felt like it was bait and switch. I would reach one milestone and then he would set a new criteria. I appreciated his caution but at the same time, I was ready to be done with all of this and I wasn't liking what I was hearing. Finally, the call came late this afternoon that the biopsy was NOT needed and that Hubby and I were free to leave Jacksonville and return home. Music to my ears!<br />
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We don't know why my liver counts were elevated. He said it could have been a virus that they didn't identify, could have been a reaction to some medication (don't know what that would have been though), could have been any number of things. The important thing is that it isn't what he thought it could have been, among which included an autoimmune liver disease.<br />
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Tonight I am thanking God for His healing. I am thankful that I get to sleep in my own bed and that I don't have to have any more tests for 6 months. I am thankful for my Hubby who goes with me and puts up with my whining, grumping at him and need for constant reassurance through the process. And I am thankful for family and friends who check in on me and support me with prayers and messages of caring and love. It's been a roller coaster of a day, but at the end of it all, I am feeling thankful.Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-17825313751999071142016-01-11T17:38:00.001-05:002016-01-11T17:38:07.803-05:00Trusting God with the Big ThingsThe week after Christmas I had what seemed like a bad week. While staying at a hotel, I was getting out of the shower and the shower door came off the track and landed on my big toe. It hurt so much and my toe immediately turned black. I hobbled to the bed and cried while Hubby got me some ice to put on my toe. I cried and prayed and cried and prayed. I'm not sure that it broke my toe but I know I'm going to lose the toenail and it hurt to walk on it for about 10 days.<br />
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A few days later I was in the grocery store and had my cell phone in my back pocket. I always check my back pockets before I go to the restroom but on this night I didn't. Wouldn't you know that my phone fell out of my back pocket and right into the toilet?! I immediately grabbed it out of the water and dried it off the best I could, but the phone wouldn't work. I was so mad at myself for making such a careless and expensive mistake! When I got home I put the phone in a baggie of rice and prayed that the phone would dry out and work again. In my impatience, each time I took the phone out of the rice and tried to power it on or plug it in, I prayed that it would work. Three days later, my phone finally powered on. Thank you Jesus!!<br />
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The night that my phone started working I had strange dreams. I remember dreaming that my phone kept falling in the ocean and each time I would reach for it, the waves would carry it out a little further from my grasp. In the midst of trying to get my phone, God spoke to me. While His voice wasn't audible, there was no mistake that He was speaking to me. He said, "Rachael, you bring all of these little things to me. You prayed over your hurt toe, your cell phone, you talk to me all of the time and ask me to handle these little things in your life. Why don't you trust me with the big stuff? When are you going to trust me to handle the important things in your life?" I was jolted awake, but wasn't sure what woke me up.<br />
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I didn't realize what it was until later that morning while we were sitting in worship and God's words reverberated through my mind and heart. "Trust me with the big stuff." I knew at once what He was talking about. It is true, I pray about a million little things every day all through the day. These things don't seem little to me at the time but I'm sure they qualify as "first world problems, " my cell phone for instance. I have also been know to pray for up close parking spaces when it is raining, that there won't be a big line at Starbucks when I want to quickly stop for a drink, that traffic isn't too heavy, etc. Don't get me wrong, I pray about many important things too. When I tell you that I talk to God all day every day, I do. I pray for people I know, people I don't know, my kids, people who are sick or struggling, our leaders...I pray for all kinds of things. I also know that God answers prayers.<br />
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This is the thing that convicts me: I don't always claim the answers to my big prayers. I know God listens to me. I know He heals and yes, still performs miracles in everyday people. I know He <b>CAN</b>. What I don't know is if He <b>WILL</b>. About 8 years ago, before my first Crohn's surgery, I prayed for healing. I claimed that healing and I knew that God had not only heard my prayers, I just <i>knew</i> He was going to answer those prayers in a specific way. Well God did answer my prayers but not in the way or the time that I wanted them answered and so the process was much longer and much more painful than I thought it should be. (You can read about that <a href="http://proverbs31iwannabe.blogspot.com/2010/04/new-beginnings.html" target="_blank">HERE</a>) I hadn't realized it until lately, but this had a huge impact on my prayer life and my ability to trust God to answer the big prayers. I've been so afraid to ask Him for big things since that time. I don't know why God works things out the way He does. I do know that if God had answered my prayers my way I wouldn't have endured as much hurt, but I'm also sure that I would not have seen the miracle in the same way.<br />
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In the last 5 months I have been back and forth to Mayo Clinic for more tests. Some of my levels were elevated when I had routine labs taken. This has led to more tests and I'm going back for more in the next two days. I'll be honest, I'm tired of the tests, tired of being a human pin cushion. I'm tired of not knowing and I'm a bit anxious about it. I'm not doing this trust thing perfectly, but I would like to think that I am making progress. It's easy for me to look back on all that God has done in my life and to identify where He was each step of the way. It's harder to look forward, not knowing the outcome and to claim victory. What I do know is that God is there is the big and the little and He cares about all of it. As I start to get anxious with the what-ifs, I keep replaying God's words to me again in my mind, "Trust me with the big things, Rachael."Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-20116368237717573402015-12-07T10:40:00.000-05:002015-12-07T10:40:38.416-05:00Who's Harold?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I can't believe how long it has been since I have posted on here. I think about it several times a week, want to get back started again, and yet I haven't done it. Part of me wonders if what I have to say is important enough, will anyone read it? Then I remember why I started blogging to begin with. I started as a means to capture thoughts and memories for myself. Somewhere along the way I lost that. So here I am again, back at it.<br />
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This morning I had one of those moments that I wanted to freeze frame and remember forever. It was an ordinary moment, nothing so special about it, except that I was struck by how quickly my kids are growing up and wanting to hold on to their innocence forever.<br />
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Prince is a morning person. He wakes up in a happy mood, often singing about what a great day it is going to be. This annoys Princess to no end. She is not a morning person at all. It reminds me very much of the dynamic between my sister and I growing up. I got on my sister's nerves so badly because I dared speak to her before what she considered a decent hour - 10:00 or so. Anyway, this morning Prince was singing "Hark! The Herald Angels Sing" and Princess was really ticked off about it. As he sang, I thought I would make a joke. Prince loves jokes. So I asked him, "Who is Harold?" His response was, "I don't know but he has a catchy song." It went right over his head! Before I could explain, he was down the hall continuing his song.<br />
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It made me think about traditions and what we pass on to our kids. Generations have sung this song and probably not given much thought as to what the words mean. When we were little, I remember my sister singing this song and instead of singing "with the angelic hosts proclaim," she sang "with the jelly..." Makes me think perhaps it is about more than just passing on the traditions, but also using those teachable moments to make sure our kids understand what they are singing. What do those words mean? No one uses the word "hark" anymore. Perhaps this advent, as we sit around the table for our family devotions we will have some discussion about the songs we sing and the traditions we hold dear.Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-64956739220436459712014-03-28T17:29:00.000-04:002014-03-28T18:37:05.821-04:00The Road We Must Travel - Book Review<div style="text-align: center;">
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The Road We Must Travel - A Personal Guide for Your Journey is composed of eighteen chapters covering topics such as "The Need for Honest Self-Assessment," Reading the Bible Spiritually" and "The Art of Managing Conflict." The authors of this book are well known and respected pastors and authors such as Francis Chan, Bill Hybels and Eugene Peterson. <br />
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The short chapters in this book make it an easy read. However, they are packed with years of experience and counsel. One of the chapters I especially appreciated was The Art of Managing Conflict, by Gordon Macdonald. He explains that managing conflict is a five-step process.\<br />
1. Accept that conflict - the collision of two or more perspectives is a necessary ingredient of any human relationship.<br />
2. Recognize that each of us brings "Baggage" from past experiences into present dealings.<br />
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4. Decide to limit any kind of disagreement to the issue.<br />
5. Reach the terminal point in a conflict where adult versions of "sorrys" are said and solutions found.<br />
As someone who dislikes conflict and would like to avoid it at all costs, I have learned that it is necessary in almost every relationship. However, these five steps have given me confidence that I can deal with conflict in healthy ways and even strengthen already existing relationships. <br />
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This book would be great for someone just graduating and starting out in their adult lives. It also would be great reading for anyone in any stage of life. I have enjoyed reading it and will probably read some of my favorite chapters again. <br />
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The title certainly got my attention. In his book, Ralph Reed pulls no punches in explaining how events throughout American history have defined the times we live in today. Awakening is divided into 3 parts: 1. In Motion, 2. Off Course, 3. Awakening. Within each of these parts are the fifteen chapters comprising this book. <br />
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As someone who enjoys American politics and is concerned about the direction our country has turned, I was quite interested in reading this book. We must understand the history behind not only American policy, but spiritual cycles to really get why we are where we are. One thing that I found promising was that Reed explains that within political systems, there are spiritual cycles. Human societies tend to move from faith to prosperity to pride to destruction, and then regeneration. I have hope for the regeneration of spirituality in our country. He explains that when things are at their worst, there is a repentance leading back to faith. Oh, how I long for that time. <br />
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There is so much in this book that I can't list all of the things I learned. What I can say is that I appreciate Reed's perspective, given his political perspective and Christian background. He uses scripture and Biblical history as well. At the end of each chapter, Reed has included Action Points. These Action Points could be used while reading this book by yourself, but also lend themselves to discussion with a group. <br />
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Chapter 15 is titled "A Call To Christian Citizenship." Reed says, "As people of faith, we exercise our temporal citizenship not to gain power but to witness to a higher authority. Properly understood, our citizenship is a gift from God, and we utilize it to glorify Him by defending the defenseless, giving voice to the voiceless, and asserting that our rights come from God, not any king, president, court or congress."<br />
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I received a free copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review. I am not obligated to give this book a positive review, although I did enjoy reading it and found it quite interesting. I recommend this book to anyone concerned about the state of our country (I don't know anyone who isn't concerned). Go buy it!Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-65248223326423930962014-02-13T22:22:00.000-05:002014-02-13T22:22:50.296-05:00Bounce Back Book Review<div style="text-align: center;">
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Bounce Back - When Your Heart is Empty and Your Dreams are Lost<br />
The title grabbed me and I couldn't wait to see what Julie Clinton had to say in this book. I think we all have had dreams that have been lost at some point or another and we wonder what if... I certainly had plans for my own life and battling Crohn's Disease or fighting for my life after having the twins were not a part of that plan. Even still today I think about those dreams that have gone by the wayside when things didn't go according to my own plan. <br />
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In Bounce Back, Clinton tells women about her 3 B's. She says we need to Breathe, Believe, and Bounce Back. The rest of the chapters in the book build on those 3 B's and give specific examples of women she has encountered and their life stories and how these women have dealt with the loss and disappointments in their lives. Some have dealt in constructive ways and others have not, but are learning how. <br />
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I thought this book was thoughtful and useful for anyone who has felt the sting of disappointment that life didn't turn out the way they hoped, or someone who is perhaps grieving a loss of some sort. Clinton's practical steps, using the 3 B's seems overly simplistic, but I am willing to give it a try. Bottom line: Read the book, ladies. I think you'll be blessed. <br />
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I received a copy of this book free from Worthy Publishing in exchange for an honest review. I am not obligated to give it a positive rating, but I do recommend it.Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-47607504031900725082014-02-11T17:48:00.001-05:002014-02-11T17:51:09.527-05:00Prime of Life - A Book Review<br />
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In his debut novel Prime of Life, P.D. Bekendam introduces us to Ben, a surgeon turned janitor at Heritage Gardens Retirement Home. Ben is running from his past and came to Heritage Gardens for a simpler, less stressful life. He has a quirky preference for all prime numbers and no left turns. Ben has developed close relationships with the residents of Heritage Gardens and they help him just as much as he helps them. When a part of Ben's past is revealed to the residents, he realizes that he can't really escape those feelings of bondage and unforgiveness. <br />
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P.D. Bekendam is an eye surgeon. Proceeds from Bekendam's writing go to help fund his activities in developing countries as he works to bring cataract surgery to the needlessly blind. <br />
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I enjoyed reading this book. The character development was good and I enjoyed getting know each of the characters at Heritage Gardens and quirky Ben. There were parts of the book where I laughed out loud and other parts that made me really empathize with Ben. I expected for there to be a more spiritual component to the book in the beginning of the story and it seemed lacking. However, as I read on, I discovered that the spiritual struggles that Ben faces are threaded throughout the story. I loved the ending of this book. It offered a nice surprise and kept me guessing what would happen right up to the end. I recommend Prime of Life as a great leisurely read. <br />
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Redeemed is a devotional book based on the song by Big Daddy Weave. I enjoyed this collection of 30 devotionals all around the theme of Redemption. Each of the 30 devotionals is titled Redeemed by...______. They each contain a short devotional, followed by scripture, quotes pertaining to the subject at hand, a prayer and then an area to journal your own thoughts on each topic. Topics include: Redeemed from Ghosts of the Past, Redeemed from Struggle, Redeemed by His Promises, and others. <br /><br />At the end of the book there is a section devoted to scriptures to consider on various topics such as Worry. Worship, Miracles, Difficult Days, etc.<br />
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This book would be a great gift as well as something to purchase for your own use during daily quiet time. I love that each day's devotion could be done in a short amount of time, if you are short of time, but also, there is a lot of food for thought and you can meditate on the scriptures provided and then journal your own thoughts. You will get out of it what you put into it. <br />
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This book was given to me by Worthy Publishing in exchange for a fair and honest review. I don't have to give it a positive review, but I highly recommend it because it is a good book and a useful tool in drawing you closer to God. Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-19255900849641751802014-01-19T21:54:00.000-05:002014-01-19T21:56:04.604-05:00Food Triggers Book ReviewFood Triggers: End Your Cravings Eat Well and Live Better - The title of this book had my attention. I wondered if there are things I eat that cause me to crave other not so healthy foods and so I thought I would give this book a read. <br />
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Rhona Epstein is a certified addictions counselor and she wrote this book not only based on her expertise in the field, but also because she has struggled with food addiction in her life. In the beginning of the book she tells her story about how sugar was her trigger food and what eating sugar did to her. <br />
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While I do not suffer from food addiction, I found this book an interesting read. As I read about how some people have an emotional attachment to food and the negative talk that goes on in their heads about how they are alone and the only ones who overindulge and/or binge, I felt compassion toward people who suffer from eating disorders. I have known people in my life that have suffered from eating disorders. I think that we probably all know people who struggle with food and we don't have to look too hard to find them. <br />
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Epstein talks about not only addressing the chemical triggers that certain foods cause, but also dealing with the emotional baggage people carry that cause them to eat when they aren't hungry. Some people eat to fill a void that food can't fill and because it will never be filled, they continue to eat. It's a vicious cycle. I appreciated that Epstein addresses the whole person, physical, emotional and spiritual. She talks uses scriptures throughout the book and encourages people to look to God to fulfill that missing part of themselves. <br />
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While I didn't think this book necessarily applied to me, the information in it was good information for others that I have known or may come across. Epstein gives practical ways people with eating disorders can overcome their behavior and not repeat this crippling cycle. I would recommend this book if you or someone you know struggles to have a healthy relationship with food. <br />
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You may know "Take time to be holy" as the first line of a familiar hymn. This was my thought when I first saw the title of this devotional book. As we seek a life of holiness, we are seeking to be ever closer to God. This book contains devotionals for each day of the year. Each day begins with a scripture and then has a short writing by Brengle. <br />
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Samuel Logan Brengle was born in 1860 and received Christ as a teenager. He was a preacher and an officer in the Salvation Army. His preaching and writing built upon teachings of holiness by John Wesley and others. "Take Time To Be Holy" is a compilation of works from Brengle's writings, which have been edited for length and compiled into this devotional book. <br />
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This compact book with a padded cover is convenient to take with you or to remain in your study area. It would make a great gift for someone or for yourself if you are looking for something to study in the new year. I enjoyed reading the devotionals. In the front of the book, Hostetler wrote about the life of Brengle and I found this most interesting.<br />
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<br />Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-69659098903487489062013-08-29T11:53:00.001-04:002013-08-29T11:54:26.886-04:00Sweet & Simple Moments With God Book Review<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Sweet & Simple Moments with God Devotional is exactly what the title indicates. There are devotions for each day of the year that are simple, yet give me a thought to mull over throughout my day. I am excited to read each morning what Kim Newlen has written for that day. The last several days have had a continuous theme of having a makeover. Beginning with Cleansing and Hydrating and moving to Foundation, Concealers, Eyes, Cheeks, Lips, and Perfume, each thought is loosely based on those themes, but with deeper spiritual and biblical ideas. <br />
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This is the perfect book for busy women who want something quick to pick up in the morning and carry the ideas with them throughout the day. It isn't a substitute for deep Bible study, of course, but it gives me just enough in the morning until I have time later in the day to sit down and really dig in.<br />
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I received a free copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review. I am not obligated to give it a positive review. However, I think this book is a good one for a sweet and simple devotional.Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-40611063306992130042013-08-15T14:29:00.001-04:002013-08-15T14:29:11.783-04:00Third Grade BluesI hear so many parents that say they can't wait for school to start. While I crave the routine, I enjoy the more relaxed schedule that summer provides. I love spending quality time with my kiddos and I hate to see summer come to an end. Several weeks before school starts we get all of their supplies together, try on uniforms, and talk about what to expect in the new year. I think the best part of school starting back is school supply shopping. I have always loved the smell of a new box of crayons. Bouquets of freshly sharpened pencils, post-it notes, markers, spiral bound notebooks...Love, love, love school supply shopping! However, loving school supplies doesn't cure the "My kids are going back to school blues."<br />
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Yesterday was the first day of school. It was a total success! Everyone woke up on time and we were feeling pretty great about things. Supplies had been labeled and backpacks sat ready to go for the last two weeks. Princess didn't even fight me as she drank down her instant breakfast. (She isn't a breakfast person at all.) We took the obligatory first day of school pictures until my sweet Princess and Prince were begging for no more pics. "Let's just get on with it!" "Can we please go to school now?!" <br />
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As we left the neighborhood Princess asked if she could pray for all of us. As we drove to school, we all took turns praying for the first day of school and for the days that follow. When we were almost there, Prince, who normally doesn't get nervous, said, "Mommy, my tummy feels funny." Oh my sweet Prince, all will be OK when you get into your classroom and put your things away. By the time school gets started you will feel more relaxed and things are gonna be great. <br />
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This year, the twins are in third grade and their classroom is upstairs. As we climbed the stairs and began walking down the hall, Princess started saying, "Mommy, I don't want you to leave me. Please don't leave me." Everything is going to be great. You're going to have a great day and I can't wait to hear all about it when you get home. Here, let me take your picture in front of this third grade bulletin board. <br />
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We walk into their classroom and are greeted by their teacher. I'm really excited about their teacher this year. I have gotten to know her a little the last few years of being at the school and I like her a lot. Prince and Princess find their desks and begin putting their things away as I am the dorky mom taking pictures the whole time.<br />
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Then it happened. I heard a child ask the teacher if he can go to the restroom. She asks if he knows where it is, down the hall and across from the elevator. It suddenly hits me how fast my kids are growing up. This is big stuff. They are in third grade and I can still remember when they were down at the preschool with me. My eyes begin to puddle and my voice gets shaky. I start to tell Prince and Princess bye and Prince says, "Mom, are you crying?" Nope. Not me, I say with a smile plastered on my face. Hold it together Rach. You can do this. Just give them kisses and be on your way. I go to give kisses and I lose it. Total fail. I'm the mom,<u> the only mom</u>, crying as she leaves her third graders in their classroom. I cried the whole way to work, talking to Hubby on the phone as he was trying to reassure me that I didn't totally embarrass myself or our kids. If it's this hard to let them go to third grade, I don't even want to think about college!<br />
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Everyone had a great first day. They were excited to tell Hubby and I all about their friends and all of the new and wonderful things about third grade. It's gonna be a great year and I took everyone to school this morning without incident. We're settling in to a new routine and looking for to all the wonderful adventures that are ahead this year.<br />
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This week is our church's Vacation Bible School. I have been working and preparing for months for this very special week. It's always an exciting time. It's also a lot of pressure. I want so badly for things to work as planned. I want for the children and the volunteers to have a fun and meaningful experience. Oh, and by the way, I want for people to think that I have done a good job with the planning and execution of it. <br />
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Yesterday morning I was wide awake a little before 4:00. No matter what I tried, I couldn't get back to sleep. So I got up and headed down the hall with my kindle. As I began to quiet my mind and my heart I read the daily word from Jesus Calling. The first sentence hit me right in the face and penetrated my heart: <em>Find freedom through seeking to please Me above all else. </em>It went on to say that when we allow the expectations of others to drive our efforts our energy is "scattered to the winds." <br />
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I am a people pleaser. I want for everyone to be happy and when people aren't happy, my nature is to lose sleep worrying over how I can fix it. I have learned though, that I cannot and will not make everyone happy all of the time. All I can do is the very best I can do, but the most important thing I can do is to honor and please God. Yesterday morning after my quiet time I got to work making those last minute lists and busying myself to try to cover all of the bases. When I would feel the "what-ifs" clouding my thoughts and my mood I heard God say to me "Abide in Me." Could it really be that simple? Abide in Me. If I abide in Him, in His love, in His promises, in His truth I have His peace. Simple? Yes! Easy? No! But it gave me some perspective and reminded me why I do what I do. Staying connected to Christ is critical. It also reminded me of the source of my strength and of my very being. <br />
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I hope that children, volunteers, parents, everyone has a great time this week and that they come away from VBS having had a wonderful experience. However, the true measure of the success of the week is whether or not God was glorified through our time together and if His kingdom was furthered because of it. <br />
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The first two days of VBS this week have been fun and fruitful. There were things that happened out of my control that weren't perfect, but they were handled. At the end of the day, I think the bigger success was that in the midst of the imperfections I found peace and was able to calmly solve the problems. Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-53320750410559573222013-07-18T09:19:00.002-04:002013-07-18T16:41:39.968-04:00The Thing About SistersThis morning I am thinking about how thankful I am that God gave me a sister. My sister and I are 20 months apart and although we are very different people, we are extremely close. The thing about having a sister is that you always have someone there to cheer you on, to root for you. <br />
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Growing up we would fight like crazy, but God help anyone who would mess with one of us because we'd immediately team up against them. I may or may not have vacuumed over her hair. In my defense, she was laying on the floor trying to get me in trouble when my dad told me to vacuum our room. <br />
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As teenagers I woke up excited for the day and talking about what would happen at school that day and she would grump that I talked too much. She isn't exactly an early morning person. However, get her giggling late at night and she can't stop. <br />
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To this day, she is the one person I like to scheme with. She's been my Black Friday stay up all night and shop buddy since we were old enough to make our own money and drive and even now she goes with Hubby and I to search out the good deals. It's much more about the bonding and the experience than it is about the shopping. She may or may not have accidentally cut a chunk out of my hair recently (paybacks?). We laughed till we cried and our kids wondered what in the world was wrong with us. This is nothing new though. Did I mention that she is the aunt who swoops in to save my kids when they are in trouble with me? She treats my kids like they were her own and I am so glad they have her for an aunt. <br />
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For the past several months my sister has suffered from debilitating back pain. She is undergoing surgery this afternoon and I am praying that this will fix the problem. It has been difficult for her to not be her usual active self with her love of exercise and chasing her 3 boys around. Today I am praying for steady hands for her doctor and complete healing of her body. I know that she is going to feel so much better coming out of this and I am looking forward to many more adventures to come.Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-59280979808551684142013-07-16T09:53:00.000-04:002013-07-16T09:53:37.671-04:00Long Time No BlogIt's been so long since I have written and posted. I have started many entries, mostly to sort through my thoughts and feelings. However, it has been way too long since I have written anything that is worth publishing. Where does the time go?<br />
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We just finished celebrating the twins' 9th birthday. I can't believe my sweet Prince and Princess are 9 years old!! If you have read my blog much, you know this is a difficult time for me. I want to celebrate the blessings God has given with two healthy children, but I also struggle with remembering the circumstances of their birth and all we went through to get to this point. This year was no different. Hubby and I both struggled as we thought about the life and death stuff we have come through. <br />
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You can read about their birth story <a href="http://proverbs31iwannabe.blogspot.com/2010/07/my-miracle-babies-part-1.html" target="_blank">Here</a> and the follow up <a href="http://proverbs31iwannabe.blogspot.com/2010/07/nicu-experience-part-2.html" target="_blank">Here.</a> <br />
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Earlier this week I was talking to a friend who has had a difficult time lately with some health issues he has been facing. He said that he has been struggling and asking God why and then he feels guilty because of the long life and the blessings God has already given Him. This resonated with me because I have felt the same way. I know I should be thankful for what I have. I know that God has worked things out for His good and His greater purpose. I know that I must sound like the spoiled little kid who wants things her way and wants them to come without a price. I still struggle, but I would like to think that as I wrestle with the questions, I am growing through it. God is big enough to handle my questions and I may never understand why, but when I ask those questions I like to think that God is drawing me closer to Him and asking me to just trust Him. </div>
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I look forward to the day that July 14th comes and I am fully in the present and the promise that the future holds, not dwelling on hurts from the past. However, it is from the past that I have learned what it truly means to trust in God's perfect plan. <br />
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These miracles are truly a gift from God and they teach me so much about my relationship with God and who I want to be when I grow upProverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2037219703817782361.post-57086552871535561532013-06-06T07:49:00.001-04:002013-07-17T17:29:59.896-04:00Prayer Warrior Mom Book Review<div align="center">
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I am so glad I requested a review copy of Prayer Warrior Mom. God has entrusted parents with a huge responsibility and He has also given us an amazing gift. We want to be the parents God has called us to be, but we don't always know how to intercede for our precious children. In her book, Marla Alupoaicei gives wonderful insight into exactly how we should pray. It includes scriptural references that tell the how and why. <br />
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Pray Scripture, Stand in the Gap, Pray with Power and Authority, Fast for Spiritual Breakthrough, Hold Your Children Loosely...<br />
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At the conclusion of each chapter is Today's Prayer followed by a page called Sword of the Spirit with more scripture relating to the chapter. Also, there are small group discussion questions to follow each chapter. This book could be done in a group of moms who come together to support and discuss or it could be done alone as you prayer and seek discernment in your own prayer life for your kids. I think it would be neat to go through this book and keep a journal of ways the Holy Spirit touches your heart through this book and then to journal the prayers you pray for your children after having read it. <br />
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I received a free copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review. I am not obligated to give it a positive review. However, I think this book is a fabulous resource and plan to keep it at arm's reach so I can refer back to it.Proverbs 31 Wannabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13475193264358807292noreply@blogger.com0