Send the Rain

The sky is getting darker and it is about to rain.  As I drove home from work my prayer was "Lord, bring the rain.  Refresh my soul and rain down upon me until I can't separate what is me and what is You."  I need that intimacy, that closeness.  I have been so wrapped up in me lately, that I haven't spent the time with Him that I should.  I'm so sad that the twins started kindergarten.  I'm so busy starting a new year at the preschool.  I've gotta get the house clean and the laundry done.  I, I, I.  However, the last few days I have felt Jesus tugging at me saying, "Come to me.  Come sit with me.  Share your heartaches and challenges with Me."  In worship yesterday, Pastor preached about this and it spoke directly to me, as I have had this on my heart the last several days.  I've missed that special time with Jesus...the quiet the two of us share before the rest of the house wakes up.  God has been calling me to Be Still but I've been a busy little bee, packing lunches, folding clothes, etc.  It's all so tempting to try to see how much I can get done before work and school start.  But I've missed my friend Jesus, sitting in his presence and sharing my heart in the stillness.  This is what charges my batteries and offers my soul the refreshment I need. 
Jesus never gives up on me and I am so thankful for that!  He will continue to speak until I'm ready to listen.  Rachel, from Seeking Peace spoke to my heart this afternoon with her blog.  Go visit her there and be blessed!

The Retreat

This has been a different week for me. Hubby has had a work retreat in Orlando and I was asked to come with him. So I arranged for our wonderful babysitter to come and stay with the children so I could go and stay for three days to support my husband. Did I mention that we are staying at a really nice hotel and it's quiet in the room by myself?

Did I mention the view?


The truth is, I have had a great time while supporting my husband and meeting with the other wives. Every once in a while it is nice to be able to concentrate on being a wife and be able to think about who you are as your own person as well. You know, without having to hear, "Mommy I need..." in the background. It's strange because I have been looking forward to these few days of retreat, but I miss my Prince and Princess terribly. I also find that I don't really know who I am without them. The other wives have grown children and grandchildren. They know who they are and they know what they want to do. It seems conversation steers itself back to my precious children because they are my life.

And while my children miss me being there, they are being spoiled rotten by their too cool babysitter. They have Vacation Bible School in the mornings. Yesterday afternoon they talked her into taking them to the zoo. Today they went to the movies. They got a pretty sweet vacation out of the deal.

In between missing my children, I am having a good time, though. We are eating at amazing restaurants. Last night the University took us to Emeril's and to see Blue Man Group. I have been shopping and lunching with wonderful women, who have been so gracious to include me, and I have had uninterrupted conversations with Hubby. All of these things are pluses. (Fun Fact: Did you know that pluses could also be spelled plusses? I looked it up to be sure.) Tomorrow I will return to reality and will hug my children tight and listen to all of their adventures from when I was gone. But for now, I am off to enjoy the quiet with a good book.