We just finished celebrating the twins' 9th birthday. I can't believe my sweet Prince and Princess are 9 years old!! If you have read my blog much, you know this is a difficult time for me. I want to celebrate the blessings God has given with two healthy children, but I also struggle with remembering the circumstances of their birth and all we went through to get to this point. This year was no different. Hubby and I both struggled as we thought about the life and death stuff we have come through.
You can read about their birth story Here and the follow up Here.
We've come a long way, Baby!
Earlier this week I was talking to a friend who has had a difficult time lately with some health issues he has been facing. He said that he has been struggling and asking God why and then he feels guilty because of the long life and the blessings God has already given Him. This resonated with me because I have felt the same way. I know I should be thankful for what I have. I know that God has worked things out for His good and His greater purpose. I know that I must sound like the spoiled little kid who wants things her way and wants them to come without a price. I still struggle, but I would like to think that as I wrestle with the questions, I am growing through it. God is big enough to handle my questions and I may never understand why, but when I ask those questions I like to think that God is drawing me closer to Him and asking me to just trust Him.
I look forward to the day that July 14th comes and I am fully in the present and the promise that the future holds, not dwelling on hurts from the past. However, it is from the past that I have learned what it truly means to trust in God's perfect plan.
These miracles are truly a gift from God and they teach me so much about my relationship with God and who I want to be when I grow up